kelly's graduation

my baby sister graduated from college today. i'm really sad that i couldn't be there, and i am so so proud of her.

she has now passed me in life. she's engaged (officially), she's a college graduate. am i holding myself back? am i letting louie hold me back? do i even want to finish college? quite honestly, no, i don't. i'd like to be able to say i have a degree, but i don't want to have classes and homework again. i don't want to have to pretend to socialize with people almost a decade younger than me. i don't want to be the old one in class.

i want to be a business owner. i want my own store filled with wonderful things, things i personally have selected and placed in my store which i've built from the ground up, designed to be exactly the way it looks in my mind. i want to employ my family members, and not have to answer to anyone but myself.