new year, new home, new life

i can't believe it's 2011 already. i remember thinking about my 10 year high school reunion, that 2012 was so far away... and now it's next year.

2010 was a hard year. it was hard on our relationship, hard financially, physically, mentally, emotionally...

so now, tonight, today, as i pack up our little apartment and prepare to leave for colorado, i'm hoping this move and this year brings us the fresh start we need so badly. i hope it brings us closer. i hope it brings some new opportunities and new people into our lives.

i hope it's good living with justin. i hope i love colorado as much as i hope it will. i hope i eventually start to feel like a real grown up, and actually start to work on the things i've planned to work on for so long now but haven't had the motivation to do. i hope i get to see my family more. i hope we get to travel more. i hope i start to look the way i look in my head, and start to gain back some of my confidence. i hope i express my self creatively and start to remember who i really am. i hope louie gets better. i hope we can start to be less stressed. i hope i learn to cook more. i hope i can garden. i hope i can enjoy the mountains and take more pictures.

here's to a brand new start!